Sometime
last year, around or before my 27th birthday, my husband told me that
he had a dream about me being in really great shape with a firm/toned
body, wearing a Wonder Woman tank top, and completely dominating at the
gym. He said he saw me in the dream doing pull-ups without any weight
assistance like it was nothing at all; that he saw me benching and
squatting more weight than ever, and doing many other difficult feats
like a pro. (He had a very detailed dream, obviously.) I was very
inspired and said to him "By the end of the year, I will be that woman.
By my 28th birthday, I will make THAT woman look weak."
Well,
my 28th birthday is in a few days, and I have not officially met either
of those proclaimed goals/statements. However, I am making decent
progress, and am on a path to get there. I have been more consistent
this year than I had been previously-in both working out and eating
better- and have been getting some results here and there. Results have
been frustratingly stagnant over the last two or so months-I have stayed
at the same weight range the whole time despite working very hard- but
at least I know I am not going BACKWARDS (gaining weight), and that
helps keep me mentally on track.
The
fact that I can say that I have not reached a goal, but that it is OK
because I am making progress, is by far, the greatest psychological win
that could be asked for. My journey is no longer defined by a number on a
scale, but rather the numbers that I know matter more: Can I run
longer? Can I lift more weight? Can I do something that I previously
couldn't?
Last
year, if I worked out a lot but didn't see any change in the scale, I
would have breakdowns and "throw a fit", for lack of better words. Now,
when I see the same frustrating number on the scale for several weeks in
a row, I can accept it and move on because I know what work I put in
and what I am capable of and know that eventually things will turn. I
am more confident in my abilities and celebrate smaller victories, such
as gaining 2 seconds when running a lap around the park or running 10
feet farther than the last time. And my attitude in general has become
more positive.
But
these things didn't come from wishful thinking, nor did they happen
overnight. They came from constant, willful working on mental habits.
(And is STILL a constant work on it.)
If
I'd catch myself falling into negativity, or if my husband caught me, I
would work to find something positive to say or focus on in efforts to
change my attitude. At first, this was HARD and I'd really have to
think of something positive to say-which goes to show the depth of my
lack of esteem or positivity, I think. As time went on, and the habit
became more developed, it became easier to find things, and more
importantly, to believe them (instead of just talking the talk). I also
find that being more positive helps me work harder, and working harder
helps me be more positive-it's a circle of good.
I
believe that the mental aspect is as important as everything else when
making changes (to anything-not just finances or weight), if not the
most important thing. There is a quote attributed to Henry Ford (whether
that's true or not, I have no idea) that kind of goes along with this
idea: "Whether you think you can or think you can't, you're right." I
think that hits the nail on the head. People who believe they can do
something, push through to do it-even if it takes a while or has to be
worked up to/done in steps. People who believe they can't do something
quit or procrastinate or make excuses to not do it, etc. I want to be in the first group, believing that I can do what I need to, and moving forward with mental fortitude to weather the storms.
So
what can you do to make some positive changes and defeat the negative
self-talk? While no list is going to be definitive or apply to everyone,
here are some things that have helped me:
-Replace negative thoughts with positive ones, and be specific.
Example: When I would say or think something about being fat, I would
then say out loud something that is better. "I did x better today"/"My
arms are shaping up", etc. This may be hard at first, and you may feel
insincere, but that is all the more reason to keep doing it. It will
become more natural as you keep doing it, and easier to find things.
This doesn't just apply to one thing. ANY negative thought you have can,
and should, be reframed with a more positive one.
-Count Your Blessings. I
know this sounds like a cliché thing to say, but I mean it in the most
literal sense. Last year, I spent several months stating things I was
grateful for, just one (or two) a day. I started in the end of September, and
by the end of the year, I had over 50 "blessings" counted, before I lost track of the number. Again,
sometimes this is easier than others (I started with "1. I am Alive" if
you need some inspiration), but with some thought, I am sure you
will find numerous things to be grateful for or that make you happy. And
it is really difficult to not start to be more positive when you are
spending conscious brain power on exuding gratefulness.
-Have someone hold you accountable/hold someone else accountable. Such a simple, yet powerful, concept. If you notice a friend/loved one saying something negative, (gently) call them out and ask them to say something positive. Ask a trusted friend/loved one to hold you to the same standards and let them know you are trying to do better.
-Question the negativity. Sometimes the best/fastest way to start to turn the negativity around and embrace a more positive outlook is to question it within yourself. Ask yourself WHY you feel that way, or where it may have come from. This seems obvious, but many people do not do it, instead just accepting it as "the way things are". But, as the saying goes, the first step to resolving a problem, is to identify it. You may sometimes surprise yourself if you dig a little deeper in yourself and find that what you think about something, or where it came from, couldn't be further from the truth. Once you start to identify things, it helps you decide how you want to proceed and if something needs to be changed, and how.
If you are battling your own negative self-talk, I hope these ideas help you start to find some positivity. Do you have some ideas that worked for you, or a story about how you accomplished something once you changed your attitude? Please share your thoughts in the comments below!
